I've found a friend who died for me

work, work, work. everybody is working except me. here i am at home doing nothing but play, play, play while everybody is working, working, working. my mum had asked me a few times to go out and work but i flatly refused. she replies by saying that i should work for the experience and not be bothered about the money. however, being materialistic, i care more about the money than experience. my mum knew i was lazy and so suggested that i should work in my father's company, to help in loading and unloading goods, or work in my uncle's company with the same task of loading and unloading goods, but i refused because i don't think i would be able to carry the goods. it seems like the trend to find work after the 'O' levels, something which makes me wonder? why must people work part-time after the 'O' levels? to pass time? to earn money? or to gain experience? whatever it is, i think that it would be hard for me to go out and work part-time given my character.

today, someone asked me what is the name of the church i go to, a question which i dislike because i hardly go to church,so i feel guilty. i would still give the answer but i would not consider that church as my church because i hardly go. each time Daniel asks me whether i can go to church, i would feel guilty replying "no, can't go" because i have been to church less than five times in two years. very seldom i would be dying to go to church, but most of the times when i am dying to go, i would have something on. one example is this Saturday.i really want to go to church, but my father wants to bring my brother and to Johor to stay in some hotel as my father has some complimentary stay thing, and i do not know if i would be back in time for church. sometimes i wonder why i became a Christian.of all my family members, why me? from young, i have been exposed to a Buddhist upbringing but somehow only i chose not to become a Buddhist. Buddhist fellowship member, visit to temples, getting Buddhist items to wear, offering incense-i have done almost all Buddhist practices i think and yet i chose not to become a Buddhist. up till today,years after i accepted Christ, my family do not know that i am a Christian. i think they only suspect that i am not Buddhist. in fact, every time i am supposed to go to a temple, it would rain without fail. even inSri Lanka, it rained heavily when i visited a temple.i have no idea what it means. it can't be such a coincidence. from young, i have naively believed that Christians brainwash people and pastors earn a lot of money. i was at fault for believing such nonsense. i was at fault for not daring to tell my family that i am a Christian. even a simple question like "can i go to Youth Impact camp" took me quite a while to ask. *sigh*! i don't know how my family members,or rather my parents, will react. i have asked them if we can choose other religions and they said yes, however i highly doubt this as they've said rather hurtful (to me) comments about Christianity but i don't blame them because they don't know anything about Christ. enough about that, here is a verse: "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."-1 Corinthians 10:13 God is good. in case you people haven't realised, this blog website,gracia de dios, means 'grace of God' in Spanish.